Summer is here. It is filled with wonderful things to do, swim, hike, BBQ, meet new people, and my favorite: summer trips.
Recently, as I am on the journey of figuring out the next steps in my life, I decided to get away from it all. Choosing a destination where many of my friends still live and where I thought I could get some answers about my future.
Quickly, I contacted my friends to see if I could stay with them and after only giving them a few days notice each one of them welcomed me into their homes. (I am blessed with wonderful friends)
KANSAS CITY HERE I COME
On the way up I did make a quick stop in Dallas to stay with another friend and her husband, they spoiled me with a homemade meal and an ice-cream snow cone.
Kansas City will always be a special place to me. It was the city I moved to when I first left home. I found my place there, made lifelong friends, had multiple jobs, discovered who I was and realized I could do it on my own. I lived most of my twenties in this beautiful city.
Returning was like a breath of fresh air. Seeing old friends, going to my favorite places, exploring all the new changes in the city.
A few things I learned and experienced on my journey are below with the appropriate song lyric.
I want to get away, I want to fly away.
I am an adventurer at heart and I love going to new places. Being with new and old friends, relaxing and laughing as we visit is one of the most enjoyable things in this life.
Also, taking a step away from my current circumstances gives me a fresh perspective. It gives me a chance to look at my life away from it all.
One of the best parts is being around friends who have known me for a decade. I know they have seen me on my best day and I can guarantee you at my worst, and yet they still choose to love me.
My highest recommendation to anyone if a circumstance is overwhelming you or you can’t find a way out. Make a change, step back for a day or two and be around those who truly know and love you. Also, seek their guidance. We are never meant to do it all on our own.
Why So Serious?
Life is hard, it is challenging. It is disappointing, overwhelming, difficult and sometimes harsh. But in all of that it can also be surprising, exhilarating. exciting, hopeful and at times absolutely, wonderful.
I love to be goofy and to be a kid again. My all time favorite story is Peter Pan! Where else do you get to live in a would where you never grow up and adventure is on every corner? As a grown up though, there are times I get so wrapped up in my own thoughts and worries. I forget to have fun.
While on this trip my friends and I went to the zoo. It was a blast. We got to see animals, walk for miles around the zoo, and took part in every single photo opportunity.
One is the Loneliest Number.
I was with my friends most of the time but while staying with one friend she worked during the day, I was left to explore the city again on my own. So much joy in driving around and seeing all of my favorite places. I even drove by my old house and only had good memories. After all this driving I got hungry. Not hungry for fast food, (I had enough of that on the drive up) but restaurant food.
So, I stepped out of my comfort zone and went to dine alone. Yes, I have gone to places and ate by myself before but never to a restaurant where I had a server. Looking very professional I brought in my laptop and a good book. Normally, I wouldn’t have my laptop but the fact was I needed it later and didn’t want to leave it in my car. I prepared myself and when asked, “How many today?” by the host, In confidence I answered, “Just me today.”
Okay, I got through the first part. I could do this, it wouldn’t be bad. Are you ready for it? She took me to a six seater booth. I hesitated. She said, “Well, I figured you would like to spread out.”
Rather than make a request for another table, I sat down and tried to spread my stuff out so I didn’t look so odd in this booth.
After getting comfortable and reading my book; I throughly enjoyed the experience. It wasn’t bad at all. It is funny how we can build stuff up in our head and when we actually do it. It is fine. Nothing to even worry about. I did have an eighty-five year old man hit on me. But all in all, I definitely think I will do this again. Obviously, by the proof of this picture the food was delicious.
It means no worries for the rest of your days! What a great song and only if life was that simple. Kansas City was refreshing, it truly was; but for some reason when I came back into Texas anxiety began creeping up within me.
I figured it was mostly from lack of sleep and traveling but when I arrived at my friends house (the one who I had stopped at on the way up to Kansas City who lives in Dallas) something happened to me.
After unloading my bags we decided to get into the car and drive to a chicken place for dinner. We got into the car and all seemed normal, I felt a little apprehensive but assumed it was the heat. When we pulled onto the highway or maybe even before I realized I didn’t have a water bottle in my purse. Panic hit me like a punch to the chest.
One thing about panic attacks is they are not rational and rarely do they have anything to do with the current circumstance you are in.
I could tell I was about to lose it. I informed my friend I needed her to pull over and get me a drink. She said that was fine but because of the traffic we were in it would take a minute. Taking deep breaths, I tried to remain calm.
My friend who knows me well, knows my quirks but she didn’t know that in that moment I was combating a full blown panic attack. She kept asking me questions about different things and it really helped me to forget the nagging feeling in my gut that I had to get out of the car.
After a little while we stopped and I was able to get a drink. The rest of the night went well. The chicken place, was amazing. It is called BABE’S and I would totally stop and eat there if you are in the Dallas/Fort Worth area. Babe’s is a family dining style restaurant and the food was delicious.
The anxiety subsided but still lingered upon me for the rest of the night.
One thing about having panic attacks is, it is okay. Calm down, take deep slow breaths, remove yourself from your current surroundings and don’t be embarrassed. My friend didn’t know what was going on but she calmly distracted me and got me a water bottle as soon as she was able to.
The next morning we discussed what had happened and she completely understood how I felt and was happy that she helped me.
It is okay that we are not all perfect and we all have different things that are challenging for us. The best thing to remember is the Lord never leaves us.
Jesus Take the Wheel
He is in control and when it all comes down to it, everything is really small compared to Him.
It was a great trip with the ups and the 1 down, but Jesus is in control of my life and he is with me.
Part of the panic for me I know is about my future, I am at a place where I am having to make some big future decisions for my life and going on this trip was to help me in answering these questions in my life.
Not quite sure I got anywhere with all the questions I need answers too, but I know the Lord is with me. He will lead me as long as I let him. I have to quit trying to control everything. He is big enough and willing enough to walk with me, help me and lead me.
First summer adventure was a blast and only last week I went to North Carolina on another one so stay tuned for all the things that happened on that trip.